Today, I was talking to friends in office and I was thinking simultaneously, is this the work I want to do… Did I choose this job and life for me..
Its starts from my childhood.. What I want to be.. When I was really small, me and my cousin, we used to live in Bhimavaram, dreamt of being Doctors and having our own hospital and treating people.. Childhood dreams…
As I was growing up, I started understanding different subjects being thought in the class.. how they impact us.. and then I fell in LOVE with Maths. This is one subject I absolutely enjoyed and would do it for hours and would always want to come 1st in the class. Obviously, at that moment in life, I was clear I would go for Engineering and wanted to do something amazing in this field.
I studied hard till 10th, and then my next destination in life “Mumbai” was calling me.
As I was determined to be an Engineer and my aspirations and goals were clear in life, I chose to come to Mumbai and continue my studies.. My parents couldn’t join me in my journey as my bro was back in Bhimavaram and had to yet complete his 10th so I stayed with my Aunt.
I was a shy girl initially here but yet confident, I don’t know where did that come from.. I may not be very talkative and expressive but I was confident as I was sure what I have come for.. my goals were waiting for me to shoot…
I still remember in 11th std in my 1st semester I scored 98 out of 100 in Maths and that had put me on maps in my class. I was so proud on that day..
Then comes the point in my life which will decide my life ahead “12th “ (That’s what at least I believed at that point my marks in 12th will decide my life ahead) I worked hard.. I wanted to do good in PCM… I would always do maths.. I remember 3 of us, myself and 2 of my friends we would always do maths and discuss the problems.. If we find some tough problem, we would throw it in front of others as a challenge and all of us would rack our brains and start crazily working on the problem.. We were geeks then may be.. hehehe But yaa that is how my 12th passed away solving maths problems and developing new love for Physics through experiments as it made every concept and law so interesting and conspicuous..
I remember me and my friends (the same ones), all of us didn’t open Biology book and suddenly when the final exam was approaching.. around a month left for exam, we would beg our friends, professors to explain biology and go to Lab and see what is to be done. We just wanted to pass Biology J and we could score and pass in Biology at the end.
Then the humungous task of admissions start: get forms , fill them , enquire about different colleges where to go.. Me and one of my friend had come to Mumbai in 11th so we didn’t have much idea about colleges so we started enquiring and with our scores in PCM we were pretty sure we would get decent college.. Again CONFIDENT… so we did not take any backup admission like BSc.. Like I said we didn’t know much about how admissions work in Mumbai and then there are twists in life.. God drops a stone on my head, a new impediment, my form was not accepted, as I have not lived in Mumbai I need to produce Domicile certificate.. Wow how do I get this certificate and from where, I was flabbergasted. Alone, and away from parents, but me n my friend who was in the same situation figured out what we need to do. But how will I get Domicile certificate when neither my parents nor me have stayed in Mumbai since 15 years. But by the time I got the certificate, my Engineer dream has been destroyed. I was devastated, I didn’t know what to do next, I went to colleges asking for BSc admission but they don’t have seats now, I was running here and there didn’t know what to do. I guess I was negligent and expected things to happen and was over confident, I should have been cautious in life. Then my friend who was applying for Pharmacy told me you can apply for Pharmacy. This is the last form, which is released for admissions, and I applied. I got through Pharmacy because of my PCM marks and not PCBmarks . After years I’m thinking again did I make the correct decisions in life, should I have waited for a year and went after my dream. From this experience , I know that I need to be more aware and be more cautious but I guess till today I haven’t learned that and I know this for a fact.
I’m waiting for my DOTS to connect in life they haven’t yet..
But one thing I know now for sure.. Chase your dreams and Do what you love.
“Do what you Love or Love what you do” and I think this will make your life rocking J
